Ignorance!

Lately I've been finding pieces of myself.  These pieces are showing me the mysteries of myself and the world.  The simplicity of the decoded messages are full of common sense, how could I have missed such a simple path? Ignorance!

Ignorance is bliss...what a F*cking lie!

Inferiority

I have felt inferior to people with material wealth all my life!  I don't know why, because I wasn't raised in a poor environment!  Somewhere along the way, I got a false belief of myself as being poor and inferior to many of the people I met and befriended.

This inferior way of thinking caused me to shrink within myself and feel unnecessary shame and guilt.  I think this is even why I may have choose some relationships, I never felt worthy of a person I viewed as good. I had shrunk myself so low that I could only function on a level that stifled and frustrated me.

My time in Rhode Island has allowed my to evolve in ways I couldn't living in the state where I was born and raised.  I've been able to share my experience of breaking free and it isn't wrapped in the package that I perceived as good.  I recently realized that although I don't have millions, I still have something of value to offer to people with millions. I am worthy and equal in every way!

I've got something of value to offer ever person that comes along my path.  There recognition of it or my lack of identifying the need of the moment, doesn't diminish my worth!  I've just got to be more present and in the former, realize another person's opinion of me doesn't make me better or worse.  My value is priceless because I am the only me that will ever be created!

I'm standing a bit taller and it feels good😊.

Small Beginnings

Rome wasn't built in a day, the Pyramids took approximately twenty years to build, the Empire State Building took 1 year and 45 days to complete, America was under British rule for more than a 100 years before gaining Independence, it took 5 years to build the Burj Khalifa, it took Bill Gates and Steve Jobs years to build Microsoft and Apple, respectively and God completed His work in 6 days (He rested on the 7th). 

A goal requires time to complete. Even a small goal such as holding your breath under water for 30 seconds, takes 30 seconds (of course you have to think of the goal before executing)! And the ironic fact is, most massive projects start with small goals or random hobbies.  They evolve because once the smaller goals are completed or you think about something long enough, bigger things can be achieved, if you build upon the foundation you've created.

Bill Gates didn't start with a dream of building Microsoft. He loved computers and focused on them for hours a day, he started small and it became big!  The Spirit of God was "hovering over the waters" before He started creation!  In other words, He spent time thinking over nothing and it became something big!

We are created in God's image and likeness.  We start with a small crumb and it becomes big if we focus and build upon the foundation of small beginnings!

and Then There was Light...

I've been in the light for almost 3 years.  I choose the light when the only twenty year plan I could envision was stagnation in muddled waters.  Death and darkness lingered in my soul, like unwelcome house guests.  Yet that small ray of light, which dwells in the unknown places of my deepest innermost heart, warmed the coldness enough to sustain a glimmer of hope.

That hope turned to faith and then I believed in the light.

That small ray of light burns like the sun and is much more powerful than the darkness that seems to engulf it brilliance. It is the light that cuts the darkness and the darkness cannot overtake the light.

I've been in the light for almost three years.  The beam of its rays are so bright that my eyes are just beginning to adjust.  I can only open my eyes a sliver, and that's just for moments at a time.

I've known the light, I'm no stranger to its goodness. 

However, this darkness was upon me for a six or seven year stretch. It blinded me to options and choices and I couldn't see my path...

My eyes are still adjusting to the light, which means I still experience the darkness, but the light is so bright its energetic force pulls me towards itself.

And then there was light...

Life isn't Difficult

Life isn't difficult. It's the assholes along the way that can make it tough!

Think about it... after a challenging work-out or difficult task you feel accomplished and proud, but after dealing with an asshole you feel drained and exhausted.

Stay away from a-holes and life will be much better!

Time is Money!

Time is money and patience is free!  You've always got time to wait, and it doesn't cost a material form of currency, can you hear me?

However, in those rare instances, when you feel you've got to move quick...Make sure you've got the money, because it usually costs material forms of currency.  Quick certainly isn't free!

The Goodness of Frustration

Frustration is always taught of in a negative light, but this morning I found good use of this lower emotion.

As I was going through my normal morning routine, I found myself becoming frustrated because some of the normalcy of my day was out of whack.  Then I began to think to myself, "self if God gave us the ability to experience this emotion, how can I use frustration for good?"  The answer...It's a signal to self that I'm out of order and possibly doing something wrong.

When this signal goes off I need to stop and figure out how to align myself with harmony.  That might mean I skipped some steps and need to complete something I didn't, ask for help or simply be thankful knowing that my desired goal isn't unattainable, I just need to prepare myself a bit more for its arrival.

I now have the ability to experience frustration and use this emotion for good!

Patience

..."Count it all Joy when you fall into various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing..." (James 2-4 NKJ (New King James Version)).

I memorized this scripture years ago!  I pondered it for hours, wrote about it, spoke to my, at the time pastor about it, repeated it, prayed about it and thought about it from the moment God put these words in my heart and periodically over the years.  This evening God gave me a real understanding of the power of patience. 

Patience is a purifying agent that eliminates the impurities of the soul.  It literally transforms our thinking, movements and realities!  

I can feel a large boulder of weight in my stomach that attempts to continually distract me from my goals, but patience is eating away at the mass and it is slowly diminishing in size. 

I'm thankful that I understand patience is changing my life!

Consistency

I started my first blog Empowered Peace in 2010. When I started this blog I naturally became a part of the blogging world. My first blog entry was on 7/7/2010 and the last (possibly not final), was 1/2/20/12.

I stopped posting because life happened and I allowed the events going on around me to redirect my thinking, behavior and direction. It's quite unfortunate because had I stayed consistent Empowered Peace could of evolved into a talk show or numerous other forms of expression.

When I began blogging it was new and exciting. People such and Kandee Johnson, Scary Mommy, Wanna Be Balanced Mom and SITS were just getting started or in their infancy stages of development.  All of these bloggers have been consistent and now enjoy an immense amount of success. They have gone on to do television shows, do sold out events, establish themselves as millionaires and do many other great demonstrations of consistency.

I'm positive they had obstacles, life and many other hurdles that success brings try to distract them from their paths, yet they managed to stay consistent.

As I  have pondered events that have taken place I discovered a precious relic called consistency. I believe that had I stayed consistent and continued doing what I started I would be enjoying many of the same successes of the bloggers I mentioned above.

So here I am starting new endeavors and consistency is willing to lead me along her diligent path. Her way isn't easy, it doesn't have short cuts and it certainly isn't for the timid. Her rewards are great and concerted effort of will power and right responses to her invitations are what she requires.

Consistency certainly requires a lot, probably more than I realize, even at this critical hour. Yet I am willing to do as much as I understand and let consistency explains the steps along the way. 

Unlearning

I thought I knew how, but apparently I didn't.

I'm learning a new flow and unlearning what I thought I understood.

Sometimes what I'm learning and what I'm unlearning collide and I find myself manifesting that confused state of mind.

But...how glorious it is when I manifest the light of the new way. The small rays of light encourage me to continue through the darkness.

This is only one thing, how many others do I need to unlearn....

Chains

I gotta get these chains off my mind so I can climb.  I gotta get these chains off my mind so I can grind. I gotta get these chains off my mind it's just a matter of time, till I get these chains off my mind.

Time

I'm becoming more aware of the output of the input of my time.  This awareness of the power of my intentional activity magnifies my moments of wasted opportunities.

I pay closer attention to my lingering thoughts and some of them are becoming areas of potential that simply need development.

My thoughts are calling me. All I have to do is utilize my TIME for greater manifestations.

easier said than done, but certainly not impossible...

Beauty

Is beauty only skin deep?  Yes, every layer that lies beneath the epidermal layer makes it beautiful or not so beautiful.

The same with our lives, each layer that lays beneath appearances eventually shows. 2018 has been making sure every layer is just as beautiful as the next. It started off easy and all I really expected to do was outer beauty treatments to make my outer appearance more beautiful... however...

I'm finding that my beauty is very deep and the deeper the layer the more challenging the beautification needed to make it shine.

There is an authenticity inherent in beauty and I pray for the strength of character necessary to make my beauty a lifestyle.

Processed Person

Me!

I didn't know I was a processed person until I knew that I liked myself. All of a sudden I didn't find it necessary to adapt another person's opinion of me to be alright.

An analogy: Food processing combines raw food ingredients to produce marketable food products that can be easily prepared and served by the consumer.

That's what I was doing to myself, making myself "easy" for others consumption. That compromised my best self and diluted my genuine contribution.

I can't say that I'm completely reformed, but at least I recognize I am alright just as I am becoming!

Yes!